Thursday, October 10, 2013

Instagram, etc

It's difficult to predict where you're headed when you're jumping head first

eyes closed,


We are people of plans. Of agendas. Calendars and clocks. Timelines, lifelines - oh deadlines, too.
And don't dare taking risks. (They're not part of the plan)

I think vulnerability is a risk. See, I think it takes great courage to expose,
and reveal what lies under your skin,
what make your bones shake.

Our culture runs on the constant search for being accepted, longing to belong as if we've already been rejected somewhere along the line. And we fight to prove ourselves, waiting for the "you're doing well"s, the "I'm proud of you"s, "wonderful work"s, and the 'like' on that Instagram photo we posted an hour ago.
The sharing has become that much easier with platforms like Facebook or Twitter, and we become exposed to the bits and pieces of each other, only now, our need to be socially affirmed has become louder, and much more desperate.

It was only one year ago that I bought my first iPhone, chose to document personal moments through a phone camera, and post them online. I didn't think it would lead to such a community. I didn't think it would become a part of me. I didn't think that it would impact me so much. But eventually, it did.
And oh, the learning. There is so much to learn in the process -
this process of sharing, exposing, being vulnerable.

I'm learning that my worth is not emphasized by a 'like' or the lack of.
I'm learning that it's okay to be honest about the bad days,
but it's okay to be silent about them, too.
I'm learning to embrace the desires of my heart,
and do and post what I enjoy
without comparing.
I'm learning what it means to be genuine,
even behind a screen -
that there is beauty in sharing your eyes with another.
I'm learning how to invite another into my mind,
and be okay with their response.
And I'm learning to let go, allowing the pieces I share of myself take a shape of their own.

It is a risk to be vulnerable. But one worth to take.
Know you are strong, worthy of sharing your eyes with him, and her, me. Know you are courageous with a story worthy of telling. Know you have a voice, know that you matter. And know which parts of your heart to guard and keep safe. Don't fear. Jump in, fully alive, and see where it takes you.

Recently, I had the great honor of being featured on VSCO Cam's blog, with a little interview, which you can read here. I came to realize what privilege we have today: our ability to share the very depths of our beings and our minds and our spirits with the whole world. Our voice can be heard continents away. Our thoughts can be read by an audience of one, or an audience of millions.

And it matters just the same.

Be brave. x

Here are a few of my favorite shots that I've taken over the year



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